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A LITTLE ABOUT ME.....
My name is Lorraine, most call me Rain or Lo. I am 25 years old, living in Oklahoma working full time while pursuing a Bachelor's degree in Criminal Justice. I moved to Oklahoma from Washington State when I was 18 looking for a life I could call my own. I met the man of my dreams one month after moving here. Harry and I were married in September of 2007. We have an amazing life together.. the only thing that was missing was the lack of confidence in myself. I have always been the "chunky" girl with very low self-esteem. I remember weighing 150lbs in 6th grade wearing a size 10/12. At my leanest and healthiest weight in high school playing volleyball I still weighed 175lbs at a size 16. College rolled around, depression struck and I ballooned up to 210lbs. My blood preassure was dangerously high, but what did doctors know? I was in denial.

MY EYE OPENER....
Harry and I usually spend one Christmas in Oklahoma with his family and the next Christmas in Washington with my family. Christmas 2006 we went up north and had a great time with my parents and grandparents.. pictures were taken and everything was wonderful. Until.. I saw the pictures. I was wearing a grey stripped sweater weighing in at 214 lbs. I looked like Beetlejuice the Blimp. I was so ashamed of myself. I had let myself down and my attitude was affecting my relationships. I had always dreamed of losing weight, but it wasn't until that moment that I knew I had to do something. Something clicked..

STARTING WEIGHT WATCHERS....
I started Weight Watchers March 20, 2007. I wasn't so sure at the beginning. 6-8 glasses of water, 5 servings of fruits and veggies, 2-3 servings of dairy? Does strawberry ice cream count? Surely french fries would count as a veggie.. it's a potato for crying out loud. Yes, I was in for a rude awakening. But I gave it a shot and actually started working! It took me a few months to get the basics down. Eventually I was living, eating, and breathing Weight Watchers. My friends and family must be sick of hearing the points values of anything and everything. Some people are quiet about their weightloss because if they don't tell anyone and fail, then no one will be the wiser. I figured that if I let everyone know, I wouldn't let myself fail. So far, my plan is working. If I fail now I won't only be letting myself down, I will let everyone down around me. It has been well over a year and I learn something new about the plan and something new about myself every week. Weight Watchers has opened up a world that I only dreamed of, and this is only the beginning.

MY GOAL....
Yes, I am looking for a number on the scale. People say the scale doesn't matter, but to me it does. I am 5'7", I would be crazy to say my goal weight is 120lbs. I am realistic with my over all health in mind. Currently my goal is to weigh 140lbs and wear a single digit dress size. If I get to 150lbs and feel comfortable, then I will begin to maintain. If I get to 140lbs and feel that I can healthfully drop to 135lbs, then I will try. Aside from numbers, I have emotional goals as well. I want to love an accept myself for who I am. This journey will never end, I will always be fighting a food battle which is more mental than people realize. Once I can look in the mirror and love myself inside and out, then I have reached goal. When I can honestly say that I have reached my goal, then the journey will really begin.

SIDE NOTE....
I'm pregnant! Due May 12, 2010. After losing 60 lbs, my husband and I decided to start trying.. On September 10, 2009 we found out that we're expecting a little one. So, currently my goals are a little different. I want to remain healthy during the pregnancy and gain weight at a healthy rate. This will create an easier labor, delivery, and recovery. We are thrilled and can't wait to share this journey with everyone.